Mosaic

last night i went to the mosaic to hear one of my friends play in his band, the loiter whores.  It was awsome…basically punk music blasting really loud all the lyrics have to do with screw the government or i hate this and that. Then we had like 20 poeple ina  mosh pit jsut going at it.  hella fun.  i got thrown into some chairs once and got knocked over 3 times.  got some kicks to the chest and my back is killing me today but it was so worth it.  i knocked over this one guy lol and he took 5 people with him.  ya i had a good time. hope to do it again soon.

VDAY

eh its kind of a stupid holiday but it can be fun.  Nothing but massacres have happened on vday… only conclusion i cna come to is that this is usually the time when birds choose mates but still. Unfortuantely im single at the moment so it was LAME.  nothing to report, gonna get A’s in school then hopefully drop out and get my GED becuase im really tired of being constantly forced to think a certain way.  I get scared everynow and then ebcaus ei catch myself thinking in the school “box” more often.  I absolutely hate school at the moment it is so sad.  I have finished the book Malcolm X and the class is still on page 52.  So now i have nothing to do in the class and it is a huge waste of time.  Mcgrath got all pissy today becuase people weren’t “thinking”.  Well she can thank school for that one.  ALSO WTF.  seriously like WTF.  Estonia got a gold in women’s xcountry skiing so thats kool.  human nature is confusing and pretty simple/stupid. end.

no name

im a little frusterated right now with school like usual.  Being beat down and taught how not to think.  I have an english teacher who treats everyone like a 4 year old which im planning on enjoying for the rest of the semester.  Ill see how much i can stir things up whilst being untouchable.  I am a little pissed at the state of people’s realtionships… everyone is always wanting to get married and stuff and i think that is retarted.  If you find the one you love you dont need to get a damn liscence and the certificate and all that other BS.  All you need is each other, sure it is kool if you and your partner decide to have a celebrationa nd you want to practice certain traditions, but in my mind you should already be married to each other without all the sentimental things.  Different parts of my mind are ticking, my right side of my brain is trying to think happy thoughts where as my left side is analyzing everything and trying to create some logic.  Maybe that is why i am ranting about this.  even though only “1″ person reads this blog lol.  I guess i just find it frusterating that everyone is all sentimental.  Who cares about the stuff in the end you wont have any of it anyway.  Look I care about my stuff but at the same time i dont.  Sure i worked hard for this and that, but the experience is more valuable.  Everyone has to be partially sentimental in this society or they are destroyed.  Well i guess all the experience im getting in life will, later in life, allow me to change the world into the way i think it should be becuase ill know almost everything i dont like about how it is now.

Christianity

I do not think it is wrong BUT i dont agree with it… Basically seperation of church and state is impossible in my opinion.  My plan is to shape the world in my way because i hate it the way it is right now.  Some might say that is foolish and/or selfish but guess what.  Chrisitanity is selfish…every human being is.  We all strive for survival of ourselves.  This beings me to the point of “terrorists”.  What America has deemed a terrorist is really just a human being that has been so opressed they abandon the need for survival and lash out in any way possible.  Image that someone came to America and put everyone on house arrest and people were beat constantly.  how long before “Americans” started becoming “terrorists”.  Humans are such sad creatures… we hurt each other for self profit.  Its quite sad seeing such destruction, Humans are very very good at extermination themselves!  Also i was thinking about the whole woman drama thing.  I was talking with one girl and she says she likes drama cuz it tends to bring out who a gy really is.  That brought me to the conclusion that they do it becuase they are taught that guyz are just out to get in their pants and will do anything to get there.  They make their own tool to help stop this.  They make guyz chase after them to make sure the guy is really intrested.  Some guyz get tired of chasing and not finding the right girl.  They become the lying bastard that a woman’s drama tool was built for.  Everyone starts to be who everyone else wants them to be, not who they actually want to be.  It just keeps spiraling.  A never ending circle of tools that dont need to exist.  If people would stop messing around things might be better. Humanity could actually better as whole without the stoopid cloak and daggers.  ALSO schools…schools train people to work within society, those that find they dont fit in school are destroyed and life becomes way hearder for them.  Very smart people get weeded out becuase they dont feed into the schools.  The schools system is run as a fascist government… so then you get some smart people deciding to conform with the only goal is to get deep into the system and then destroy… putting their own system into place. Is that wrong? I dont think so, all it means is that the same things will be happening in a different way.  Enough of my ranting why dont you go think.

WTF

im tired of the goody nate BS.  It never really existed… So ya im gonna continue my rants and stuff ill jsut censor…my feelings becuase i guess society deems them inappropriate.  I guess that is part of the curse of being intelligent, (at least for me) it is hard to express myself.  Half the things i say dont mean anything, and the other half is communicated wrong.  Only 1% of what i type actually gets interpreted correctly (in my opinion).  Gives me a lot to think about…stuff some people would say is so crazy.  But whatever, i dont care… interpretation… it sucks.  I find it difficult to learn becuase someone is always screaming in my ear at home, at my dad’s im not allowed to learn from my favorite source.  Too bad this whole thing is gonna get misinterpreted but whatever, its more for me then you. so ya good times in a crappy life.